How I started investigating the paranormal
I was a relatively late comer to the paranormal field. Unlike a lot of fellow investigators, I did not have a life changing experience in my childhood, and in some ways I didn't even know that I loved the paranormal as much as I do. Like a lot of teens, I played with Ouija boards and did seances. I have done Bloody Mary and tried scrying. Things did happen at the time, but me being me, I was able to debunk them, even when I was 13. I took them for what they were at the time, a bit of fun. To some of my friends however, they took it very seriously and had different ideas about the things that had happened. I was very fortunate in life, and had not really had to deal with the death of anyone until my grandfather passed away just a month shy of my 21st birthday. It was unexpected and it hurt like hell. What seemed to be comforting though was the thought that he had only left his physical body and that in some ways he was very much still with us, and we believed he was giving us those signs. Could I debunk some of those moments? Absolutely I am sure I could ..... but I don't want to.
I have always been drawn to historical places and the strange. It wasn't until I watched my first paranormal TV show in the early 2000's that I realized that people actually went out in search of the paranormal. I found it fascinating but thought that I would be way too scared to even consider doing it. I would be happy to cheer on from the sidelines with the light on. In 2013, I was lucky enough to travel to London with my husband. I hadn't done an official investigation yet, but I wanted to do a ghost tour of some sort and I thought what better place to start delving into the paranormal than in London. We were only there for a few days and it was the middle of winter - it had even snowed the day before we arrived so it was cold. Not Melbourne cold - London cold and that was a whole other level! I was unable to get into anything at the time because I left it till the last minute. All that I could find was walking Jack the Ripper tours and while that would have been amazing, not at night when it was only 1 degree. I settled for day visits to places like Tower of London, Stonehenge and the Roman Baths in Bath. I soaked in the history and listened intently to the tales of the paranormal - especially from the Yeoman at Tower of London believed to be a very haunted location. It was the closest thus far I had been.
Things took a turn for the worse for me in July 2013. I found out I had a 10cm cyst on the tail of pancreas which needed to be removed and I had to hope that it was not cancer. I lost 1/3 of my pancreas and also my spleen - but no cancer - Phew. I had a lot of complications in surgery and in hospital and at one point, I wasn't even sure I was going to make it home. It was a long and painful recovery. My children were only 1 and 2 & 1/2 at the time and it was really hard. I had a wonderful support system in place at home which helped me, but it was hard. After a lot of my physical recovery was complete, I then started to slip into depression. I couldn't even get out of bed. I went to the doctor to get some help. One of the things he told me was to 'find a passion'. He suggested something like photography (which funnily enough I did delve into at a later date), but I had no idea what to do. I slowly started to enjoy life again and I realized that life was too short and I started developing a more care free attitude. I still had to find that passion though!
My brother and husband had always been at me to do a paranormal investigation but I was too scared. With my new carefree attitude, I said Yes. So at the end of 2013, we went out and did our first real investigation. After years of wanting to and dabbling in things, I finally got the courage and jumped in. I guess you could say the rest is history. I was hooked. I started studying the history of locations and researching anything to do with the paranormal. If you know me in real life, you know that I don't do things by halves. Before I knew it, I had found my passion and there was no stopping the train. In 2014, I co founded a paranormal group - Paranormal X Files. In 2015 I started this blog. In 2016, I co founded Black Rock House Paranormal Tours. This year I will be speaking at the World's Beyond Forum at Earthcore. Next year I will be speaking at Paracon with some of my paranormal idols. It is scary, it is exciting and I could not be happier. I am by no means an expert, a point I like to regulary make clear. I have so much more to learn. I work hard, I research, and I am out in the field every single week. I am a researcher, I am an investigator and you can also call me a tour guide. I am honest and I am really using this blog as a platform to tell everyone what I have been doing, what information I researched this week or what is on my mind. That is just me! I found with the blog that people seem to relate to it and come to me to thank me because it makes them feel like they can go out and try investigating or that they have found a place where they can be themselves. I guess in a way we are all a little bit outcast, maybe that is why we are all drawn to one another. We can use that to learn from one another. If I can pass some of the things I have learnt to others, that is amazing. But the main reason I do it all? I love it!!!!! I have found something that I can throw myself into completely and be myself. If I am going to be honest though, I don't do this for them. I don't this for the likes. I do this because I enjoy doing it. I enjoy writing my thoughts down. I enjoy speaking. I enjoy investigating. Call me selfish but yes I do all this for me. Sure I enjoy giving back to the community and helping to open up doors for them, but I would be lying if I said that is the main reason I do it. It gives me purpose. Being a stay at home mum can be hard. I am more than just school runs and caring for my kids. This field allows me to showcase that.
Do I think I am going to prove existence of the paranormal? No I don't. I am not looking for that one piece of evidence to make me famous. I am not wanting to prove to a group of skeptics that something I experienced was real. I am not looking for social media fame. Honestly I wouldn't be able to handle it so you can have it. I guess in some ways I am still looking for that comfort. The comfort of knowing that this isn't it, there is something more waiting for us. Overall though, it is about the journey ... that is the exciting part. The history, the stories, the experiences, the friendships, the long lasting bonds you can make with people online that you haven't even met ..... the journey. Who knew that investigating the dead, could bring you so much life?
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